12.08.2009

if you want me to

in our last small group meeting, everyone brought in a song that most aptly leads her to prayer or describes her current prayer or conversation with God. music has always been a huge connection point for God and me. but i don't really listen to a whole lot of music. i guess it just makes me a little bitter that those people have record deals and publishers and rock star lifestyles and i am doing data entry and fixing copier jams and sorting things into filing systems that nobody cares about. but enough about all that. the real point of this post is to share a song with you that one of my small group girls brought last week. this more than any other song that i know or have written most describes what's going on between God and myself. ginny owens was a big favorite of mine before i went to rock'n'roll camp and swore off all christian music. i think i'm going to have to take a trip back to her self-titled album and use it to help me remain open-handed in my posture towards God in this continuing season of loneliness and purposelessness where i find myself.

the video is kinda cheesy, but it's the best i could find. if it's distracting to you, just close your eyes and listen. in fact, i would recommend just going ahead and doing that. it's a much more profound and enjoyable experience that way.